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Monday, March 19, 2012

every breath, every step










heart ache and the uncertainty of being a mom.


trying to perfect the art of making caramel rolls
and when that failed, toast and jam


walking outside in the early morning camera in hand,the quiet beauty feeds my soul
tears in the shower,because it is a quiet private place.




enjoying smiles that came from friends who enjoy wineand birthdays. Meeting that didn't go as planned.


tension instead of sleep


waiting for calm


Trying to advocate



yearning to "breathe"





coffee.

Thursday, February 16, 2012



Hello friends,
My heart is so full~~~~~~SIGH
My sweet one, has lost his first tooth. this mama barely had time to settle into the idea of a loose tooth before it had fallen out.
Time.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

lifebook 2012




Lifebook January is all about harnessing my Goddess super powers.
These are pictures of the Goddess I drew and painted. This will be page 1 of my book!I still need to add the qualities of my Goddess, they will be displayed on the flap.
This assignment was truely fun. I enjoyed the drawing and painting lessons, and thinking up some great qualities about myself was rather difficult. We are brought up that it is not polite to "toot our own horn".

Monday, January 9, 2012

Reflecting



Maybe it is because of the new year, maybe it is my age, but it seems I am very aware of what I love, and enjoy and long to see, do & experience. Maybe it is because something has been missing altho there all the time? If you havent read my posts before I am a married, mother of 1 high energy 5 yr old. Lucky to be a stay at home mom. My husband travels alot. I have always wanted to be a "mom". I have cherished every single solitary minute of my life as a mom and mom to be. I adored being pregnant. I had a "feeling" my child would be special. With that I somehow knew I would be teaching my child to do things and to hit milestones long after his toddler peers were independent. For me- it was ok, better than ok! I loved being his teacher, and cheerleader!
Somewhere in the time that he was learning and growing and I was figuring out how to be a great mom, and an educated mom,an advocate, a fighter, a teacher, training, modifying, guessing, trying, trying again,pursuing, researching and realizing... I lost myself.
I have recently found a great community of friends, whether they are online friends that I have never met face to face or the wonderful parents I have met at my sons school--either way they are a saving grace.
I realize now that I have to take time for me, and to breathe... take a little time each day to to reflect on what I love(besides being a mom)
I need to seek JOY even if it is 1 little thing each day, like watching the winter birds in the feeders outside my patio window. To me, I realize that I need to do this and remind myself that I need to find that place of calm and beauty that I love in nature and wildlife-to help me when things are frustrating, isolating and heart aching.If I do that... I think my day(s) will be a little better!~and I will be a more patient mom and wife.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

New Year very exciting !!!!!!!!!



HAPPY NEW YEAR!(pictured to the right is myself and my sister Pam) I am extremely excited about this year probably more so than I have ever been on day 1 of a new year. I have always had a fun New Years eve for the most part with friends, or family. This year is so different because of all the extremely wonderful avenues that have come my way, in terms of art and people.
I have always been artsy from a little kid. I never really knew how to pursue it or even keep it in my life just as a hobby.Believe me when I say YEARS went by and I always felt like something was missing.I never knew what, tho.
This year with the help of some special people I am venturing on a journey of self discovery of sorts. I am participating in a 1 year art/therapy on line course, called LifeBook. Look it up at http://www.willowing.org/
The person who organized Life Book is truely an amazing person. Please read about Tam here: http://www.willowing.org/abouttam.html
I am beyond excited to learn from 13 different teachers thru out the year. I am even more thrilled to have told one of my sisters about it, and she has climbed on board. I am so amazed at her willingness to do this- she will attest she is not ARTY. It doesnt matter if one thinks of themselves as an arty or crafty person when working on Life book. She will do fantastic things! I can hardly contain my excitement for all the growth I will be doing and also I am not scared of reaching in to the darker places for healing. it is long overdue. I have a fabulous feeling of Great things to come for me in 2012

Friday, December 30, 2011

balance and creativity in 2012

Re-posted from July 2003:

(posted by girlsgotgumption.com) When I first read Julie’s words, goosebumps lined my arms because what she speaks about in this newsletter is something I – and a lot of artists I know – struggle with. Balance.

Most of us tend to overwork ourselves, something that is easy to do when you’re in love with what you do. However, if you don’t look after yourself, your relationships and your home, your work (and you) will eventually suffer. Balance is the key to everything, but sometimes that’s hard to do.

Julie’s “Check List” is a great reminder on how to keep our lives balanced and our work creative. Take it away Julie!

Monthly Life Balance Checklist
by Julie Valentine

Life can get pretty busy with work and life pressures, that’s why I think it’s important to find tools to keep us in track. I have learned, over the last 2 years with my business, that tools and processes can keep the edge off feelings of extreme overwhelm. To keep me on track I created, along with my business coach, a checklist to keep me on track. This list is so helpful I wanted to share it with you.

Try looking over this list once a month and make note of anything that is out of whack. Identify solutions that leave you inspired. Put each solution on your to do list and schedule a date to complete it – even if it’s a year or more from now.

Overtime, completing each item will give you a sense of balance and control over your life and give you a freedom that will allow you to share more of your talents with the world.

MONTHLY LIFE BALANCE CHECKLIST

Am I Nurturing My Relationships?
[_] Is there anyone that I owe a phone call, letter, email, etc. who I need to be in communication with?
[_] Do I have any broken promises I need to apologize for and release or complete?
[_] Have I gossiped about anyone?
[_] Am I in contact with Mentors, Teachers or Sages?
[_] Is there anyone I need to acknowledge or thank?
[_] Am I nurturing or creating romantic relationships?
[_] Am I nurturing family relationships?
[_] Am I supporting the endeavors of others? attending receptions, graduation, openings?
[_] Am I remembering life events by sending cards or calling for birthdays, anniversaries, holidays?

Am I Expressing My Creativity and Sense of Play?
[_] Have I scheduled a vacation?
[_] Have I created something original from my heart?
[_] Have I scheduled a local adventure to discover a new place, restaurant, museum, etc.
[_] Have I set a side time to dream and vision my future? (Keep a journal, etc.)
[_] Have I spent time in silence?

Am I Honoring My Body Temple?
[_] Have I scheduled a physical with a doctor and/or OBGYN?
[_] Have I moved my body through physical activity? dance , yoga, etc.
[_] Do I have sufficient health insurance?
[_] Are my hair and nails in good condition?
[_] Am I getting regular body work: massage, reiki, etc.
[_] Am I getting sufficient sleep?
[_] Are there any differences in the look and texture of my body that I need to deal with?
[_] Have I scheduled an appointment at the dentist office?
[_] Am I drinking at least 8 glasses of water a day and completing my meals by 7pm?
[_] Have I scheduled an appointment with an eye doctor?
[_] Am I putting an effort into my appearance?

Am I Managing My Palace?
[_] Is my check book balanced?
[_] Is my house clear of clutter?
[_] Which areas need attention?
[_] Are my taxes paid?
[_] Are my bills paid or scheduled to be paid?
[_] Do I have a long term financial plan in motion ?
[_] Do I have a sufficient savings and a savings plan?
[_] Do I donate to charity?
[_] Do I have sufficient home insurance?
[_] Are my home appliances in working order?
[_] Are my plants watered?

How’s Work? Am I Sharing My Gifts and Talents with the World?
[_] Is my work place clean?
[_] Are there any communications I need to make with my contractors, vendors, customers?
[_] Am I showing up for work on time?
[_] Is my performance at work up to par?
[_] Am I holding people to account for our agreements?
[_] Are my bills and/or business expenses paid?
[_] Are my business taxes complete?
[_] Are my business license current and complete?
[_] Are my business systems helping me progress with efficiency?
[_] Are sales meeting or exceeding targets?
[_] Is my business supporting me and enhancing my life?
[_] Am I happy with my salary?
[_] Do I have sufficient legal representation?
[_] Do I have gathered an extraordinary team of employees or contractors to assist in production?
[_] Have I created a marketing strategy to keep my products alive in my customers minds?

Am I Honoring My Mode of Transportation?
[_] Is my car registration up to date?
[_] Do I have sufficient car insurance?
[_] Is my car clean, clear of clutter and smelling fresh?
[_] Have I scheduled an oil change?
[_] Do I have any incomplete traffic/parking violations?
[_] Are my tires in good working order?
[_] Have I addressed any other maintenance issues?
[_] Have I scheduled a routine checkup with a qualified mechanic?
[_] Is my car filled with enough gas to get me through the week?

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Your heART MAKES A DIFFERENCE






I am so thrilled to be on the receiving end of Tracy Verdugo! http://artoftracyverdugo.blogspot.com
I joined an art community online and participated in an art swap.(featured by Louise Gale http://yourheartmakesadifference.com/2011/12/heart-exchange-wrap-sending-love-around-the-world/)check it out it is worth seeing!
I was partnered with Tracy and received a beautiful piece of art from her and in my previous post I showed the item I sent to her.It was an amazing event. Tracy lives in Austraila so it was exciting sending something there as well as getting her package in my mailbox.
Take a look, isn't it fabulous????